Sad news
2006-06-15 - 2:51 a.m.

I am freaking tired. I'm up late and I'm feeling kind of melancholy.

About a year and a half ago my sister got married. I was a bridesmaid and one of the groomsmen who grew up with my now brother in law was also from Phoenix. We danced pretty much the whole night together. He was a super awesome guy. Well a few days ago I learned that he was diagnosed with colon cancer and only has about two years to live. Now I've only met this guy once in my life but he's only 26. can you imaging to be 26 and to be told you won't live till your 30th birthday. I mean what do you do with that type of information. Plus he still has to go through chemotherapy so I mean his last two years will pretty much suck anyways because he won't have that much strength from the chemo.

I guess it's just one of those reminders to always live your life to the fullest because you never know when your time will come. Makes me wonder if I'm living my life to the fullest. Well, I already know the answer to that. It sucks when you know exactly what you have to do to let go of all the baggage in your life and to be able to move on from the most painful experience you've been through, but for whatever reason your heart just won't let you.

I better go and try to sleep.